I've been thinking a lot about relationships, and how fragile and easily they wither, age and just disappear (no wait, you mean I have farted on about this before? Multiple times??). I know most people don't even remember the last time they've spoken or sent a short message to their ex-classmates (you know the one, you spend all of your recess/lunch breaks with her so you might as well call her your best friend) from high school, but nobody is going to know if you really care unless you act.
Trust me, you'd think it's awkward, but if you find yourself creeping on their Facebook pictures, scouring their Twitter timelines and get disappointed each time you load their blog and they haven't updated since, you care. You probably even miss them.
So e-mail, text, tweet, instant message, whatever. Do something which shows you still remember them. Do something which shows you still miss the memories of youth you both shared in class, after school, with each other (your pathetic annual Facebook birthday wall posts don't count! Even worse if you're not creative enough to go beyond "Happy birthday!!! :D").
I know this doesn't really clue in with most, but try to think about the people who sat in front of you, behind you and three tables away. You've probably had to do projects with them sometime, and in those 4 years you should have learned enough to know the area they live, how many older/younger siblings they have and what wallets they carry (because you were broke that one time and you really needed the $1.20 for the chocolate candy you craved and you were like, omg, he's still using a No Fear velcro-lined polyester wallet...).
Because when you're both adults it's going to seem a long way ago, and rekindling that friendship with the same innocent ease would be impossible. Life, family, your S.O., your job, your first house - all these things will keep your adult mind busy and are real excuses for leaving friendships to dry up in the dust. Never your bridges, but also never leave them weathered and left to be eaten up by the sun and rain.
Some jerk off thought he would lay the cliche-hammer on me the other day and spat this gem out:
Act while you can, because you're only young once.
Though as much as it pains me when people use these old phrases and sayings, this one stuck... It's niggling at the back of my head, but I guess it has a lot to do with me reaching a milestone in my life. Two decades worth in fact.... SO OLD.
On another note, I've been sick for the past 3 weeks (since the 2nd week of January till now) and it's absolutely disastrous. Missed midterms, lethargy, lack of productivity and just overall feeling of being lifeless and old. Gross, ick, bleh. Maybe this is why I'm asking you guys to seize your gay and don't let your old relationships go to waste, because I'm feeling like a withering old woman myself. I'm turning 20 in a few days god damn it! It's scary and unreal... The only thing that's really bugging me is that my hands don't look my age though. Fuckin' winter. So make sure to moisturize those diamond racks/ sandwich-makers, ladies.
As another update, I've also found a house to live in for my 2011-2012 school year! It's great, since my homeowner Thomas is a complete Polish sweetheart and extremely kind. So far, he's been very understanding and lenient in payments (I've never used a checkbook and ordering one to pay him the post-dated checks actually takes more than a week for the bank and costs $17~ for 100 pages WORTOHFORH).
So yeah, this has been relatively good in procrastinating...I hope everybody back home has been having a lovely Chinese New Year($). I miss Singapore and all the house gatherings and endless white rabbit candies, pumpkin seeds, roasted duck and bak kua. Fuck. All that eating and sweating to keep you happy and relatively slim - WO YAO. Off to go for dinner with a friend.
I MADE THAT FML CAT PICTURE ISN'T IT FUNNY???
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